Are You the Storm, or the Sunshine?

Cape Town always looks gorgeous, even during a storm. (Courtesy of twitter.com/grahamandrobert)

That is what I missed earlier this morning. That is what I’ve missed for most of the year: Cape Town – my home; in all its glorious beauty.
This semester is dragging now. Seriously dragging. I have 18 days, 18 DAYS left in this stupid little hole-in-the-ground middle-of-nowhere town. During these 18 days, I write four dubiously simple exams.

*Sigh*

Apart from Paul Scholes announcing his retirement, (see my tribute here) which gave my morning an already melancholic tinge of grey, I’ve heard some more, somewhat more personal, and therefore, more distressing news today too…
Apparently, there are some things I don’t miss about home… Let me tell you about it, shall I?

Actually, wait, let me ask you this, readers: Have you ever had one of those conversations with someone special? A conversation in which you talk about the future; and they promise you something – they promise you that they are not ready for a relationship at the moment? That is has nothing to do with another guy? That it has nothing to do with you, but all to do with timing? And then after that conversation, perhaps a few weeks… they’re with the person you had suspected they’d jump for all along? The person who they’d wanted all along, rather than you, after all you’ve done for them? To them? With them?

Well then, there’s my bloody problem.

And it may not seem like much, but it’s preventing me from studying (BAD), from not checking Facebook and WhatsApp, from not looking through my damn photos every half an hour. It’s not affecting me, but it is. Why is it? It was clearly over between us the moment the sun rose that day at Pringle, so why am I still stuck on this? What the hell is wrong with me?

Sigh. I guess I just have this, or well, had this hunch that she wasn’t telling me the truth. I should’ve known all along. Usually going with your gut is miles better than believing every single thing that anyone, even that special person, says to you. It’s not worth it.

One thing is definite though: If Cape Town stays that beautiful, I’ll have no problems going home. None at all!

Have a great day, everyone!
- reddevilandy10